Sunday, April 22, 2012

PATAH HATI

peace be upon u and hi girls..
it's tulip :D


it has been a very very very long time since my last post.. i'm so sorry coz i actually have forgotten the email and password for this blog.. thanks to chuad (cactus) for reminding me about the email and the password.. and thanks to her too,again, for making this blog alive.. *standing ovation :D

i think and i know we are all doing well now.. although we are now in different courses.. bravo girls.. i apologize for not updating my current life with u guys as i have been doing that in my personal blog.. so guys, feel free to click at my face to view my blog.. :) i suppose to write this entry at my personal blog but i think it is safer to jot it down here..

girls,
i had a crush with one of my course mate and the feeling is still here (i'm pointing my finger at my heart) he is 2 years older than us and i suppose he is a good looking man (i don't really think he is but my friends say so) I don't really know him but i just like him.. there was a time that i couldn't even hold a book because he kept appearing before my eyes.. and for a very long time, i tried to find excuses to have a chat with him although my heart pumped like crazy when we were chatting.. there were also times when i entered his lecture class just to see him (and also because i love the lecturer) and to notice him about my existence.. GILA kan..?? yeaahh, when i think back what had i done i would smile and thought how silly i was.. but still, it made a very good memory.. :) *senyum kambing

after quite sometime being a stalker, i found that he actually like other girl and that girl is at the same age as him but in different course.. i was so PATAH SERIBU.. but yeah, i don't have the right to feel jealous or what-so-ever because i'am nobody to him.. and i'm quite sure he don't even notice my presence. i once had tried to delete him from my so-called jiwa raga but i failed..
i found it hard and tiring to have him in my mind and jiwa because i couldn't barely do anything right.. and pendam perasaan is really not a good thing to do..

therefore, before i left s.alam for the semester break, i asked to meet him but unluckily, he couldn't make it.. so we had a chat (on facebook) on friday's night.. my hands we so cold and my heart was pumping like i was chased by a goose... i started the conversation.. i told him not to interrupt me until i asked him to answer my question.. and yeah i confessed that i have my eyes on him for a very long time.. (actually my purpose confessing to him is to ease my jiwa raga and to completely delete him from my mind and jiwa..) i also knew that he would reject me but still i needed that "KNOCK" from him to make me realize that he was not meant for me..
i asked him to write this "sory, but you are not my type".. but he didn't do so.. he said that that sentence was too harsh.. i insisted that i'm ok and will be ok.. he then gave me three sentences which i thought were harsh enough for me to dump him out of my mind and jiwa..

now, i have a week to completely erase him from my life.. i know it's not gonna be easy, but i have to.. pray for me girls.. i didn't regret for being such a thick-skinned person, confessing to him my jiwa because at least he knew what was my feeling and i felt so relieved after doing that.. now, i just have to focus on my study.. no more HIM to bother my mind and jiwa.. and i believe ALLAH had chosen someone to be my partner and above all, HE is the BEST PLANNER..

that will be the end of my not-so-love-story... girls, i hope u guys will never experience like what i had been through.. it hurt me A LOT.. and the laceration would not be easily healed.. but i hope time will help me healing that broken heart.. till my next post.. miss me yaa.. *peluk korang ketat-ketat..

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Cactus & "girlfriends" + "gentlemen"

Bismillahhirahmanirrahim

Me again! Hohoho~
Mcm yg korunk semua tahu, cactus mmg suka kenalkn kwn2 cactus pd kwn2 cactus yg len termasuk la korunk 7flowers... Kalu boley biar satu dunia kita kawan (wow! tingginya angan2...haha)

Disebabkan post F4 tu, rasanya mesti peminat BOF akan guling2 gelak ataupun marah2 sbb samakan hero2 kacak BOF ngan "F4" celup... HAHAHA (gelak besar)
Cactus just samakan character diorg je BKN rupa... jd just enjoyla k...

Ni antara 'hot' girlfriends with me...

PROFIL "WAN SU"

-rumate cactus
-nama kitorg hampir sama tp xserupa iaitu Wan Suhada vs Nur Shuhada(cactus)
-dulu dia ni duduk KL tp pindah Kulim & mmg berjodoh sbb tmn kitorg kat Kulim pun berjiran... hahahaha
-anak pak cik polis ni... jaga2 aaa~
-single lg (klu nk ngorat, contact cactus..haha)
-muka dia pelanduk dua serupa ngan senior kos kitorg (tp pic senior tu xdapat nk tunjuk cni... mmg serius sebijik bezanya senior tu ada tahi lalat cute kat muka dia)
-rumate plg sporting & penyabar (thanx ^ ^)




PROFIL "WADA"

-ni toiletmate cactus (buka pintu toilet je nmpk katil dak ni)
-mentor dia terkenal sbg "gigolo", dia lak dilatih jd "playgirl" (hahaha... rmi peminat dak ni)
-kitorg pggl dia "supplier" gak (ada je dak baru yg dia kenal)
-kecik & femes mcm cik nanas kita aka tulip
-lesung pipit dlm mcm gaung
-byk abg angkat yg rajin belanja dia (untunglarr)
-busy sokmo laa
-dak selangor & status xdiketahui... hahaha



PROFIL "HAZIRAH"

-ni toiletmate cactus yg lg sorg
-ni dh berpunya
-org Langkawi,Kedah (bleyh pesan ceklat byk2)
-misteri amat & layak jd 'lawyer' sbb satu ayt dia ni mmg dpt menutup mulut org
-satu kepala ngan wan su & bella arabella
-nm timang2an manja dia 'aki'




PROFIL "BELLA ARABELLA"

-nmpk pendiam & suci je tp sbnrnya.........(dasyatt ooo)
-rajin uruskn hal2 kelas
-single trang tang tang (sape nk cr calon bini, contact cactus...hahaha)
-org Pasir Gudang, Johor je (untungla bley blk umah hjg mggu)
-berdikari & suka bersendirian tyme shopping cam cactus
-dia ni toiletmate husna



PROFIL "HUSNA"

-ni merangkap kwn belangkas aq
-mmg muka cam izzah ombak rindu (dahi luas)
-budak Sg Petani, Kedah
-rupa2nya satu matrik satu batch ngan cactus dulu cuma dia hayat & cactus fizik
-dia ni pun satu kos ngan cactus kat kolej kesihatan ni
-dia ni mmg xsingle & xavailable... jd sbrg pertanyaan jodoh utk dia, diTUTUP
-dia mmg pandai masak (seyes sedap smpi menjilat pinggan mangkuk sudu garfu)
-hantu shopping (lebih2 lagi shopping tudung)
-seorang yg colour maniac & ske pakai fesyen blocking colour
-selalu dijdkn bhn buli oleh 'F4' tu
-kalu tgok cara dia study, kompem korunk trus surender dr jd student...hoho (dasyat punye)
-dia ni 'ratu segala penyakit', sume penyakit dia ada sbb tu la bilik dia cam farmasi (bau pun mcm farmasi tp mcm bau farmasi + hospital + klinik + ICU)
-xleh hidup tanpa makeup,keyakinan diri dia 100% low klu x touch-up wlaupun sikit
-xpayah tggu hujung bulan, tgh bulan pun dh pokai (sbb tu dia rajin masak... hehe)
-sekali cemburu atau gaduh,mcm nk runtuh hostel kitorg...
-dia syg & rapat gilerr ngan rumate dia, kalah cactus & wan su (muahahaha... gelak perli)
-suke giler tgkp gmbr & upload gmbr (borink tgk muka dia... huhu)
-rabun tp pura2 normal (pakai spek tyme kuliah, tu pun spek zmn bila ntah)
-dahla ckp pasal mak cik ni, pnjg lak pasal die... huhu





PROFIL "DEWI"

-mmg nama dia ni dewikusuma halim (unik kan)
-dia sorg je satu2nya makhluk dr kos fisioterapi yg terlepas masuk satu kepala ngan kitorg
-pakar mengurut & penasihat kesihatan serta sukan (sebab tu asyik sembang otot ngan spark)
-single lagi dia ni... (sape nk amek dia jd bini, direct tell me...hahaha)
-umah dia plg dekat ngan kolej kitorg...(jln kaki pun boleyy... tp peluh sebaldi gak la)
-dia aktif sukan (ptg2 selalu jogging)
-dia pun satu habit ngan husna, suka sgt pose gambar (pantang ada masa terbuang, snap here, snap there... =.=")
-dia sekarang tgh jd fasi cactus utk kuruskn badan...huhu (kena dera ngan dia)
-gelak dia dasyatt gilerr tanpa mengira tmpt atau waktu atau pun aksi gelak (hahaha)
-dia ni ala2 hantu contact lens




Stop sudah profile girlfriends cactus kat kolej ni... Skunk cactus nk tunjuk gentle boys yg selalu gak jd bodyguard kitorg utk g outing terutamanya pasar malam... hehe... enjoy again!


PROFIL "FAIZ"

-xpernah cactus jumpa lelaki plg penyabar dasyat cam dia (walaupun ada je bhn nk gaduh..huhu)
-masa sem lepas, xpernah miss teman kitorg
-kitorg gelar dia 'loanshark' sbb kdg2 dia belanja tmbg atau pinjamkn duit (mesin ATM kitorg selalu wat hal)
-dia anak org berada tp xsombong (brg sume loaded & terkini)
-sygnya, dak2 laki xsuka dia (diorg xbuka mata hati nk kwn ngan dia la tu)
-kesian kat dia, klu ada pun dak laki rapat ngan dia sbb nk amik kesempatan
-dak2 laki ingat kitorg rapat ngan dia sbb nak 'paw' duit dia (diorg xtahu hal sbnr, kitorg guna duit sndr2 tau)
-setelah dia pergi pindah ke kolej Sg Buloh, kitorg amat terasa kehilangan dia (no bodyguard)
-cactus selalu tukar2 komik ngan dia
-aweks2 dia sume amik kesempatan kat dia (kikis duit), kesian dia
-status dia xsingle kot skunk (ikut edaran masa)
-malas study mcm cactus
-xabis2 pujuk kitorg ikut jejak dia g Sg Buloh (sengal~)
-peminat Gundam (pantang jumpa, beli)



PROFIL "ABG LONG"

-ingat lagi x, post F4 gmbr yg first tu, tu la abg long atau nmnya Mohd Ikhwan
-dia rumate faiz, toiletmate pada roy & spark (dulu sblm pindah ke Sg Buloh bersama faiz)
-dia juga merangkap abg angkat kesygn wada
-sblm cactus rapat ngan zack & joe, cactus akan smpikn mslh kat wada & kdg2 trus pd abg long
-dia ni TAK single sbb dh bertunang
-org Perak
-muka karisma (mcm bapa org..ahhaha)
-diet dan berazam simpan otot macam spark (skrg xtau apa jd ngan azam abg long)
-rasa keseorgn sbb geng2 abg long si F4 tu kat JB
-selalu gak ikut kitorg outing tp xkerap mcm faiz sbb jimat duit



PROFIL "KUCAI"

-ni budak Perak
-dia junior nursing ambilan januari ary tu
-status xdpt dikenal pasti, mgkn single & mungkin x
-dia ni kwn baik kepada kenalan rapat wada
-saiz bdn dia kecik molek mcm wada
-takut jarum (bygkn male nurse takut jarum....haha)
-dia suka mkn bontot ayam sbb tu dia kalu ckp xreti nk stop (pot pet pot pet)
-minat kartun mata 'bling-bling'
-ske tukar cte anime ngan cactus
-mood swing (xfhm cactus... wada pun...)
-sejak dia klinikal, penat xlarat nk join outing



PROFIL "NAKIE"

-ni junior pada dewi (dak fisio batch cactus)
-seorg fotographer & krew kelab fotografi
-thn ni baru start bertegur sapa ngan dia(pelik gak nape sem lepas mcm xwujud je...hahaha)
-kitorg pggl dia Doraemon (ada nmpk cam ciri2 doraemon x???hoho)
-dia ni dh berpunya
-ske bikin skandal & antara mangsa2 skandal dia > dewi, wada, cactus, husna & lain2 yg xckup nk taip kat cni (cukup 4 kuota... haha)
-muncul mcm doraemon, tanpa dirancang atau janji trus outing skali (ada pintu suka hati kot???)
-penyabar jugak la...
-muka dia sejibik mcm lecturer neurosains ktorg(en amirul) kalu dia pakai spek
-aktif sukan gak dia ni
-speaking cair ok... (rs malu lak nk speaking dpn dia... almaklum sebutan cactus ala2 malay u)




Fuhh! Finally this is the end of my story... Sory la 7flowers... Tak dapat cactus nk post pasal kita ber'tujuh' sbb kita belum reunion lg... Oleh itu cactus harap,bila korg ada masa terluang, story2 la kwn2 korg yg sekarang... Excited wanna know about life korunk skang...^ ^

'Whoever u are,
whenever u go,
but da memories wif each of your frens,
never fade & each of them meaningful in our life...'

Lastly is our pic together2...







Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Cactus & "F4"?

Assalamualaikum frenz...

Dah lama x update story psl cactus & geng yg gaduh ngan cactus tu ye... (refer post thn lepas) hehe~ Akibat rasa bosan yg amat dasyatt dan kebetulan br lepas tgok cte "hana yori dango" iaitu Boys Over Flower versi Jepun, maka cactus pun tergerak aty nk taip pasal diorg...

ASAL USUL
Sbnrnya diorg berlima, tp da most older among them pindah kolej...
Masa kitorg gaduh dulu, abg long la yg jd penasihatnya...
Tapi biasala, laki still bela laki... huhu~
Ni la our "abg long"... bkn abg long kwsn aaa~



Maka tinggallah mereka ber"empat" saja...
Bajet model la tu... =.="



PROFIL 'SPARK'

- umpama ketua dlm grup
- semua kata2 dia jd ikutan
- bina badan & otot2
- aktif sukan
- kalau xkenal dia, kompem korg akan meluat atau xsuka dia
TAPI bila kenal dia,dlm hati ada taman jugak dia ni sbnrnya... hahaha
- dia ni la pernah serang cactus kat fb klas,
mmg 'pedas' kata2 dia smpi cactus nangis baca...
mmg xleh dgr nm dia apatah lg dgr suara dia sbb terngiang2 kata2 dia kat fb tu...
tp tu kisah lama la... skunk dh jd KAWAN..
- xsure la single ke x... tp dia ckp dia single... (biasala laki ngaku single saja)
- kalu ikut karakter lam F4 dia ni Gu Junpyo la...



PROFIL 'ZACK'

- dia ni plg relaks sbb dia dh ada awek (satu2nya yg mmg kompem xsingle)
- plg sweet, awek dia pun satu kolej ngan kitorg
tapi klu ikut thn kemasukan, awek dia senior la... umo sama...
- byk back up cactus
- pendengar dan penyelesai problem jugak
- antara 4 org, cactus lebih suka story kat dia
- kalu karakter F4 dia ni Song Wo Bin...



PROFIL 'JOE'

- plg main2
- plg byk peminat pompuan
- layanan dia akan buatkan pompuan 'fall in luv' (cactus xcair ye)
- dgn dia ni mmg cactus xleh nk wat serius, kompem dia xserius punye
- tp dia dh byk kali di'kantoi'kn oleh cactus... hoho
- kejam... pernah buat cactus nangis juga (post sumting kat fb klas)
tapi nasib baik minta maaf gak
- cactus ngan dia ni mmg saling berbalas ala2 dendam yg xberapa dendam... (fair & square)
- single dan kononnya nak mak dia carikn jodoh...
- mujur dgr nasihat jugak orgnyerr
- kalu dlm F4 dia ni umpama Yi Jung



PROFIL 'ROY'

- ni la skandal cactus tu
- thn lepas(ms hot kena gosip), mmg xbertegur sapa lgsg la
- thn ni(dia dh digosip ngan org len plak), baru rapat...
tp nmpknya gosip thn lepas tu mcm stat balik... adess
- dia ni pun single juga, ske gosipkn diri ngan dak pompuan len tp sume org tau tu sekadar usikan
- cakap laju giler mcm train
- suka buat cool & muka xbersalah
- jenis yg xmemilih sgt
- kalu dlm F4 dia ni karakter Yun Ji Hoo


Alkisah, nama2 diatas adalah nama samaran diorg masa berlakon orientasi dulu dan sampai sekarang kitorg pggl guna nama tu... Diorg empat org ni mmg terkenal sbg geng yg selalu masuk kelas lmbt, klu bg take five diorg akan take ten... Cilok mencilok kelas pun diorg gak... Mujur pandai semua... Untunglaaa~

Mgkn org len akan label diorg ni geng bermasalah, almaklum bising pun diorg kan... Tapi cactus xanggap diorg camtu pun maybe sbb dh tau sisi baik diorg kot... hoho ataupun mungkin sbb cactus pun sbnrnya berjiwa nakal jugak cuma xcukup keberanian nk aplikasikan kenakalan ditambah pula menjaga kesopanan sbg seorg perempuan... acewahhh...hahaha

Kalau ada para pembaca kenal diorg ni, better jgn bagitau diorg... Bukan apa, takut menimbun-nimbun diorg perasan yg cactus ni peminat tegar diorg... huhu~ Cactus bkn peminat ye tapi suka kawan dgn diorg... Mcm cactus suka kwn dgn korunk la... :)

Kalau diorg xde, xde pulak geng cactus nak gaduh dan hilangkn borink... Budak pompuan lain xcukup nakal utk diganggu... Ada tu mmg ada yg sekepala nakal tapi diorg terus tidur kalu borink...huhu~
Akhir sekali ni la pic cactus & frenz masa kem OT...